Life, the deadliest sexually transmitted disease, is just a waste of time. What's the point of it all ? When asked, what is the meaning/purpose of life, people always find something to say or just say that everything doesn't happen for a purpose.

The answers I've heard so far ,

to find out the meaning of life/ quest for knowledge- that's just stupid. Are we THE SIMS for someone? Or is it some sort of experiment?

to be happy/ to have fun- no life, no need to be happy/have fun

to make others happy - no life, no others, no experiences, no need to make them happy

to find goals and achieve them - again! pointless. Its just a past time then.

to be famous - no life, nobody, no point

to serve God - seriously? So we are all servants? That's one selfish God. 

life is what you make of it - why have it at all?

life's just a way to spend/enjoy time from birth until death - this one is actually better than the others, but then, why birth and death?

everything does not happen for a reason - that's just totally against everything I've learnt in my life,and according to that, everything has a reason, from the microscopic cycle in the body to the weather cycles. They all have a purpose. Except for humans. That would make it so difficult for me to accept anything at all 

its all just random - could be. even though I can't stop thinking about the order and engineering in everything natural. Or maybe its just us. We study everything and anything. But then we ultimately find a meaning or a purpose to it. So does that mean we'll find out the meaning of life someday ? But then again what about those who have already died without knowing it ? They were the part of the process? What process ? Wait, wasn't it all random? But if it wasn't then they could have been. But not all of them tried to find answers, so they must have been random after all. Am I random? Will the ones who've gone already get to know the answers once they're out. 

And where do things like emotions stand in the quest? Anger, jealousy, love, whatever, whatever. And what about rules? Why do we have emotions and the ability to think?

I don't think I will ever understand infinity. How can something not end? And if it does end, it has to end IN something. I remember when we were being taught about the planetary model of an atom in school, I had that cylindrical pencil box which could be turned on itself to get a new color, so that's when I thought maybe the universe is like that, the small(est) thing (atom) and the big(gest) thing (the solar system) are similar, maybe if we go to the smallest thing we might actually find the biggest thing and vice versa. I wish I could explain this better. But then, it has to be somewhere, right? Matter has to occupy space. 

We spend millions trying to find new ways of curing people, prevent death. We research our asses off to find ways for letting people smoke safely (although some might say its for the familial cancers that they are actually researching for, true, I agree). But then again no life, no disease, no need to research. 

I'm going too tangentially I know. Can't help it. I would love if I just cease to exist. 

Thanks to paree619.

I've gone crazy over Korean Dramas. I was the always the first one to laugh at/mock people who said they watched foreign movies/TV series. Now , all I talk about is Korean dramas and Koreans, lol.

I first saw Boys Over Flowers, my first reaction after looking at the cover - "Aren't they all Girls?". And then I made some more jokes about how girly they all were. Now! I'm in love with Gu Jun Pyo(Lee Min Ho), and I shout at anyone who calls him girly(when they look at my wallpaper, on my phone and my PC).

My friends are all so annoyed when I listen to Korean songs(the OSTs), but I can't help it, they just sound better than anything else on my playlist, or when I call them Unnie or Sunbae(lol @ their reactions). I try to sing along as much as possible, I don't even mind looking stupid while doing it. I answer my mom's call with "Yabuseyo"....

 I continued with You're beautiful, Witch Yoo Hee(not that good), Coffee Prince. Then I saw Princess Hours, the cutest thing ever. The main characters grow on you. Initially, you might even think they're ugly(I did). After this one(Princess Hours) nothing was comparable.Great acting, direction, cinematography, location, costumes and story. Though I liked The Vineyard Man and Lady Castle too.

Now I totally have a girl crush on Yoon Eun Hye. I love her.

I want her life.

Both of them (Lee Min Ho and Yoon Eun Hye) are gonna be together in  a new drama......I'm so happy (I'm actually smiling like a retard if you could see me now)

I've been like an ad for Kdramas for past few weeks. Everyone I lended my DVDs to (forcefully to one, lol, she wouldn't stop saying that "these things" are stupid), came to class the next day without sleeping, because they were watching it overnight. Seriously EVERYONE of them. I'm sure they're cursing me right now.

HAHAHAHA.... MEECHEEN GETTA..

I passed third prof. And now I'm officially in final MBBS. Sucks. The professors expect you to know everything from Anatomy to Anaesthesia. And nobody remembers Anatomy, it was tough even when we were reading it. And the worst thing is ,all the 4 final year subjects are Huge. And I know nothing. Taking cases too is really difficult. You never know when the patient would get irritated and won't let you examine anymore. Every other batch goes and examines a good case, poor patient.

Surgery cases are the best. But they grill us on every point. I'm usually among those standing quietly and just listening. There's just one person in our batch who answers. I'm always scared of even trying. I'll have to get serious now.

I'll try and present more cases from now on. I need a lot of practice.